A lovely day, I’ve arted a lot. In-between everything else. The Multi-day spread format Effy taught this month in BoD’s is ideal for this.
I finished up my MDS (with lots of elements from my mindful watercolours group and mushrooms from my very first online class (check out this to enter to win a free spot) plus frees inspired by Danielle Donaldson and Effy’s lovely doodles and the circle layout.) I love to learn. I think the best teachers are learners still.
I also had another art date and got my Rumi lesson (A year of Rumi with Effy Wild) for April done. I’m challenging myself to create each fo the 13 spreads as 8×8″ squares using just water based supplies and mainly watercolour paints.
This one used dimensional ground, transparent watercolour ground-so I could use collage elements and paint over them and a stencil with a 3D effect. I actually stuck visually close to the lesson this month I think….I did love those birds. I didn’t use college paper underneath but I built a tree shape using old pieces of watercolour art from my scrap pouch. I embraced using metallic and iridescent paints (watercolours for me) fully and love how it shimmers in real life.
I think I created a lots of texture and layers and depth….all with watercolours (and a little pencil and white gel pen). I also rubbed out the guidelines for the text! The words of this quote spoke to me today…I think maybe because I’m feeling the after-anxiety of putting a class I created out there for sale (check it out here) and right now the inner gremlins are mocking the sheer audacity of me to think anyone would be interested.
I love to teach (I taught full time for years before I had kids and then taught part time, went back after a break, taught workshops, taught teachers and woven through that is finding my love of art and art teaching.). I love the lightbulb moments. I love sharing, I love facilitating. I also love ideas…and thinking of lots of them…but that’s a whole other story. So even if only 1 person buys my class (1 person has bought my class) I still did it. I know it’s good. That needs to be enough.
I do not need to seek out the approval of all and sundry to seek reassurance, assurances because I know it, down deep. I do not. If I repeat it enough maybe it will stick. My own voice tells me-I just need to listen. Maybe I won’t be an overnight success. Maybe I won’t be a success at all but it done’t make me not a good teacher. It makes me undiscovered perhaps, unfound as yet. Believing in myself is hard but I will succeed at it! I will.
Another old poem…..
Sometimes my heart breaks and my mind can’t stretch
The corrupt evil meanness of this existence
Sometimes my heart sings and my mind can’t wrap itself
Sheer joy of it all
Sometimes my heart stills and my mind floats
On the serenity of it all